October 16 2020
V: “What did you discover at the retreat?”
Sigh… I managed to sleep only about 5 to 6 hours a day, not my targeted 7 to 8. But they are good, deep sleep. Tired still, but I do feel calmer in spirit. When I returned home yesterday, I suddenly knew I do not have to read the stack of articles and financial reports waiting on my desk. Something has happened at the retreat. I happily filed them away.
This morning, as I get ready to go out, I suddenly realized I was moving very fast. With bag, coat and things in my arms I had perfected the art of swerving at the right angle to avoid getting scratched by things in the way that may graze my arms.
Walking to breakfast, I noticed I was walking quite fast too. I shared with hubby what I discovered and we both agreed we need to slow things down and stop looking too much at our mobile phones. I took slower steps to our car after breakfast, and he slowed down his gait to match mine.
During my quiet time, I realized I was writing so fast in my journal. V led me to a note book I had intended to mail out to the Baaders….
I decided to keep it for myself.
V: “Slow your inner rhythm, Sara.”
YES, ONE STEP A TIME.
SLOW AND DELIBERATE.
I felt my inner being slow down like a gentle stream...
and it gently flowed with the music playing.
V: “Write every word, without abbreviations. Every word legible.”
I started to journal but struggled with my usual cursive style… until it trickled down to letter by letter. (Even as I type these words now, I had to deliberately slow down my typing, tap by tap, slow….)
I journalled slowly, intentionally, letter by letter, as V said softly:
A s t h e m u s i c p l a y s
b r e a t h e S a r a
o n e b r e a t h a t a t i m e
o n e t h o u g h t a t i m e
U N W I N D…
T O W I N D U P t h i s y e a r.
S... l… o… w… l… y ….
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