Some Things Cannot be Saved

29 Dec 2021

My favourite fuchsia wallet. Sigh… I had kept it in my drawer tucked in its box and dust bag as I did not want to wear it down, using it only on trips. After a year without travel, I found that it had turned mouldy. 

I cleaned and disinfected it. Sunned it. But it still smelled bad. So, I sealed it in a bag with baking soda and then layered it with fragrance. But after a few weeks, it didn’t work. 

It was too painful to discard. My friend suggested I send it for professional cleaning. 

There, the staff warned me that while they can do their best to remove all remaining mould and to steam, dry and moisturise it, it may not work. 

I told them to go ahead but sadly, two weeks later, it still smelled bad. 

Figure 1 My favourite wallet

Not giving up, I sunned it again this morning but found my hands stained with bad odour from handling it. As I disinfected my hands with clove oil, I heard V said:

“Some things cannot be saved as much as you try.” 

And I knew, it is time to let go of it even if it still looks beautiful and holds many good memories. So, I wrapped it an old envelope, safely out of sight so that people will not get tempted to retrieve it. Afterward, I washed my hands with soap and water carefully. 

V: Yes, let go. Discard it safely. Wash your hands off the evil that has penetrated deep into its fabric. 

The Lord was telling me about someone…

I asked - who...? 

I see the word “Defiled” and thought of Psalms 1:1-6

“Blessed is the one who does not walk in step with the wicked or stand in the way that sinners take or sit in the company of mockers…. the wicked… are like chaff  that the wind blows away… they will not stand in the judgement…. For the Lord watches over the way of the righteous,  but the way of the wicked leads to destruction.”

Sadly, I know there are some people I need to let go of in my heart and thoughts, even people whom I am very fond of… can only hope for God’s mercy, and respect their free will choice, as God does. And hope in God’s mercy and lovingkindness, which is far more, far higher.

And I need to stay focused on my training for the next 19 years ahead…



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